Show you a body.
I have a many poems about the home as a live thing. poetry to uncanny light horror.
a house is a home is a body.
the body as a temple of mind and soul. A captive environment of what makes us human.
necessary yet limiting.
the home is a live body of its own, cradling memories and emotion like its inhabitants. rotting from the inside out like the sickness within me. the home that seems brighter and breathable when I clean myself.
No…
not a haunted thing with spirits dwelling where nostalgia’s semi-permeable chains shackle them. a home with a mind of its own, seemingly a tad overprotective, but don’t think to hard on it.
home no longer a concept but a being of its own making, a soul imbued in sun-stained spruce. every breath savored in safety.
‘In sickness and health
I showed you a body
Like a cluttered garage’ (Heynderickx, 2018.)
Cutting my hair as the memories flow, my home turns empty, bare, a harsh clean slate.
Somehow, you become comfortable in the solace of you and the house. The creaking laugh of the cabinet doors as you stub your toe and the howling wind whipping against your windows feels like a migratory presence. The uncanny warmth that clouds around the bedroom in the winter and somehow dissipates in the summer, replaced by a gentle breeze without any of the windows being open. Doors that lock when your mind feels to heavy to remember. The loneliness doesn’t feel so harrowing and becomes something else entirely, something that can’t be explained in a conventional sense. The term house spirit doesn’t give it justice, rather, awarding credit to a forlorn ghost that obviously isn’t here. Awful rude, ain’t it? Creatures don’t like their character ascribed to anybody else.
The house that consumes you from the inside out and outside in. Absorbing your social life and your touch, holding you as a willing hostage while you continue to adorn the being with embellishments.
thank you for staying along for the ride. Blessed be <3
words from the graveyards caretaker, Kaine .ᐟ
this is so well written wow